Sunday, November 15, 2009
At a Stand Still
No excuses.
Just have not made the time.
Have not really felt motivated enough to post.
Oh, I have lots of ideas - and some great material!
But I am not making the time.
I am too tired.
I am too stretched.
I have so many other areas of my life I want to get into order.
I need to relax, refocus and decide what and why I want to continue this blog.
I am at a stand still, and I need to figure out what to do...
...see you soon....I hope!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
But, apparently
I want to do more than I am doing for her - she means the world to me!
But, apparently,
Friday, October 23, 2009
A précis of news coverage
As long-time Fringe readers know, I really do love my job!
But, alas, like many jobs, even dream-jobs, there is usually little recognition for all the hard work we do.
That is, until now!
Last night on The CBC National News there was a call out to my little team of media monitors and analysts. Watch for yourself!!!!
Yep...now, if someone asks what I do for a living I can say, "I deliver a précis of news coverage to the Prime Minister!"
PM Harper is correct, he DOES NOT watch Canadian news broadcasts....I DO...FOR HIM!!!!
Which sounds more impressive than, I watch the news for the Prime Minister!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
This morning...
This morning I eyed up all the donuts and danishes at the coffee shop.
This morning I did not cave in.
Today, I will stay on program.
This week I will be successful at the scale.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Ringing in my ears and deep in my heart
The bells ringing....
Did you hear it???
It was the sweetest sound ever!!!
At the Ottawa cancer hospital it is customary for patients to ring the bell after their last chemotherapy session.
So, did you hear the bell this morning?
I sure did!
Today my mom rang the bell.
Today was my mom's last chemotherapy session.
That wonderful sound is still ringing in my heart.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Ready! Set! Go Gobble Gobble!
Apparently, every day, DJ has been leaving his peers and joining in the grade3-6 track team practices.
The coach told me that he does not want to discourage DJr, but that he wanted to make sure my future track star understood he was too young to participate in the upcoming track team competition.
That afternoon, I sat DJ down and asked him about his track aspirations.
He was so cute. At first he thought he was in trouble. Then, I think I figured he was going to be banned from the team practices.
He smiled innocently at me and simply said he liked running with the big kids. It was good exercise and making him strong and healthy.
I congratulated him on his commitment and hard work. Then I gently explained how he could not compete with the school team...not yet.
He smiled. Nodded in agreement. Gave me a big hug and said, " That's ok mommy. I do not run for them. I run for me, cause I like it...and um, I run for you."
"You run for mommy?"
"Well mommy, I like it when you race and I want to race like you. But really, I just want to run with you when I get big and when I get better at running. Mommy, you go to your running class to learn to run - and I go to the running team to learn to run and maybe one day we can run together. I would really like that. Mommy, running makes you happy and running makes me happy and I like being happy with you!"
WOW. WHAM!
It really hit me how my transformation from being overweight, inactive and unhealthy has impacted my children.
My children see how I now take time for myself, and that physical exercise, working out, and taking care of myself makes me happy. Heck, it makes me happy, content, proud and at peace.
They see the benefits to leading an active lifestyle. Both the physical ones, and the emotional ones.
I am committed to keeping up with my new routines of working out, eating properly and taking care of myself. I am committed to being a positive role model for my three children.
So, this past weekend we all ran together. We entered the The Fall Colours Thanksgiving Day Turkey Trot race.
And everything about it made me happy.
Click HERE for more photos of Anderson.
Her photos from the race are great! I love the one with her running and a man running behind her with his screaming child! Priceless! Click HERE to see all Madigan`s professional shots!
Here we are after the race. The kids were super proud of their t-shirts, their bibs and especially their medals.
I was just proud of them...and very thankful.
Happy be-lated thanksgiving to all my fellow Canadian bloggers!
Friday, October 9, 2009
The scat master irons his socks
Rex Murphy did not disappoint!!!!
"The scat master"
"No bimbos in Harper land!"
"Harper and the Deficits"
OH my!
I HEART Rex!!!!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
So yesterday!
(hee hee, I made a funny!)
Today's brain-knocker is this little glee-ful rendition of a popular song!
(hee hee, another funny!)
TOUCH DOWN!!!!!!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Bravo! Bravo!!!!
He is NO OBAMA, in fact, many a comedic sketch has payed homage to his robotic nature. But he threw caution to the wind, and took centre stage!
Oh, his handlers have worked hard trying to improve his image - Remember those lovely sweaters?????!!!!
Anyways, thanks to PM Harper I have been humming this song!!!! All. Day. Long.
I cannot get it out of my head!!!
Furthermore, this tune is being hummed all over Parliament Hill!
Every morning I deliver my report to the PM's office in Centre Block. Well, this morning I came across 5 workers humming a certain Beatles tune!
Hilarious!
Genius!
PM Harper's performance is the talk of the town. What a perfect choice of song given our current political landscape. Oh, I cannot wait for Rex Murphy on the Thursday night CBC National program...his commentary will ROCK! (Ya, I am a Canadian Studies major, can you tell?!?!?!)
Now, wonder what PM Harper's encore will be????
At the next G8 meeting, Obama may win the congeniality award, but Harper may be crowned in the talent competition!!!
AH, Canadian politics!!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Each week my parents have been residing at The Grimes Lodge - it is like a dorm for cancer patients while they are getting treatment. There is a little kitchenette where they can warm up foods. Since my mom cannot eat and there is no real cooling facilities, I have been trying to provide as many meals as possible.
So, each weekend I make a few meals for my family is an extra little to pass onto my dad! here is this week's menu:
Monday - Crock-pot steak with mushroom & mushroom sauce and cous cous and squash from our garden!
Tuesday - Tandoori chicken with mixed veggies and cous cous.
Friday is kind of up in the air right now. We might go out for Pho soup?
This weekend is the Canadian Thanksgiving. Gotta finalize my plans...but it will involve turkey and stuffing and a pumpkin pie!!!
As for my other meals, I am tracking religiously. I am keeping within my points the best I can.
My breakfasts are going to include steel cut oats with PB and banana, or eggs with veggies and salsa or toast with apply butter. I am going to try my best to eat the bulk of my breakfast early, and then have a healthy mid-day snack.
My plans for lunch are pretty basic - mainly a salad with some sort of protein - tuna, chicken, tofu...something tasty, a bit of dressing and a fruit with yogurt.
I bought a huge bag of spinach to have afternoon green monsters - and I am loving a low-fat hot chocolate mix I got that is basically a point!
Last week I had a shock at the scales...SEVEN pounds LOST! Crazy, I know...but I think it all had to do with training and running for the half marathon! I am hoping for a loss this week... but if not, I will know that I have eaten healthy and within my points.
Check out more Menu Plan Monday entries at I'm an Organizing Junkie.
I did not get around to posting on Friday, but I cannot wait to tell you all about my new fitness program for October and November!!!!! Stay tuned!
Well, gotta run and get lunches made and kids into bed!
Peace out my dear Bloggy-friend! Sleep well!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
To worry a little less...
I cannot believe that DJ has completed the first month of grade one! Honestly, I had been worried - oh, I wasn't worried he could not do it or that he would struggle - I knew deep down that he would do great! But, just the same, I worried.
I worried he would tire through the long, full day.
Still, I worry.
I worried he would not like his teachers.
Still, I worry.
Still, I worry.
Still, I worry.
Every Friday DJ comes home with his weekly portfolio. It is filled with work sheets, art work, exercises and notes. Every Friday I carefully examine each piece with great pride.
Still, I worry.
Then, this afternoon, I found this piece of work.
A tear gathered in my eye and ran down my cheek.
My heart swelled with love, pride and wonder.
And I decided to try and worry a little less...
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
BINGO! B-I-N-G-O!!!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Menu Monday - Sept 28
I need to get back on track...just look at my running total on the right sidebar...yep, up 6 pounds in 4 weeks!!! YEEK!
Monday
Breakfast - Greek Salad Tuna (4) and a banana (2)
Snack - Baby apple (1)
Lunch - Wrap with cucumber and tomato with lite cheese and chicken soup with crackers (6)
Snack - Homemade rice cookies (4)
Dinner - Indian style chicken with veggies and pita (8)
Total points - 25
Tuesday
Breakfast - Steel cut oats, PB and a banana (5)
Snack - Baby apple (1)
Lunch - Salad with light dressing, and leftover chicken (4) Ryvita cracker with tomato and cream cheese (2)
Snack - Yogurt and granola (3)
Dinner - Shrimp and veggie stir fry with rice (7)
Snack - Hot Chocolate (2)
Total points - 24
Wednesday
Breakfast - Toast with tomato and cheese (5)
Snack - Green Monster (2)
Lunch - Greek salad with olives and left over shrimp (5)
Snack - Apple and almonds (2)
Dinner - Soft tacos with grilled veggies (7)
Snack - Popcorn (1)
Total points - 22
Thursday
Breakfast - Steel cut oats, PB and a banana (5)
Snack - Green Monster (2)
Lunch - Scrambled egg whites with veggies & taco beef and hot sauce and 2 Ryvita crackers (5)Snack - Apple and almonds (2)
Dinner - Dinner - Pineapple chicken in the crock pot with squash and carrots (7) (Recipe stolen from Chubbie Chica)
Snack - Popcorn (1)
Total points - 22
Friday
Breakfast - Green monster with berries, yogurt and protein(5)
Snack - Wrap with cucumber and lite cream cheese (2)
Lunch - Salad with light dressing, and leftover chicken (4) Ryvita cracker with tomato and cream cheese (2)
Snack - Apple and almonds (2)
Dinner - Seafood pasta(7)
Snack - Green monster (2)
Total points - 24
Saturday
Breakfast - Green monster with berries, protein, and yogurt (5)
Snack - apple and cheese (3)
Lunch - Grilled cheese and salad (6)
Snack - Cranberry scone and tea (4)
Dinner - Beef stir fry and rice (6)
Total points: 24
Sunday
Breakfast - Steel cut oats, PB and a banana (5)
Snack/lunch - Post-race breakfast celebration ! (unknown!)
Snack - Apple picking and LOTS of apples!
Dinner - Apple and walnut stuffed pork with potatoes and corn (9)
Check out more September 28th Menu Plan Monday entries at I'm an Organizing Junkie.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Everything old is new again!
My new blog?????
A new blog? Nope, no new blog. Just a dusty one!
Why not?
I took lots of photos of the "While-you-were-out-Clean Sweep" my wonderful parents did while we were on vacation - HOLY CRAP did they do a great job...though I still need the sticky notes on some drawers to know what goes where!!!!!
I wanted to bitch and complain that my Mom has cancer. I wanted to shout out how proud I am in how she (and my Dad) are handling this challenge. I wanted to update on her condition and how her treatments are going. I wanted to sing the praises of the doctors and entire medical team, and I wanted to tell you all about her "cool-cancer dormitory".
I wanted to update you on the kids and how they are adjusting to the new school year. Heck, I wanted to post about Madigan and her 3, yep, THREE first days of school.
I wanted to complain about how I had to reapply for my own job. My ridiculous hours. My crazy co-worker. Oh ya, lots of good material from the office to share!
Having the time, is not the same as making the time. For whatever reason, I have not made the time. That is sad, especially since I really enjoy blogging. I love the outlet, I thrive on the comments and idea sharing and I enjoy keeping up with all my bloggy-friends.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
I did it - a PB!!!
A half marathon!!!!!!
2:19:21.6
Moments before lining up at the start line.
I felt strong the entire race. I kept with my plan and never "lost it emotionally".
This wonderful cheering squad met me at 7km, 17km and at the finish line. Each time giving my encouragement and strength. My heart swelled with their yells of, "GO MOMMY GO!"
I finished very strong and felt great!
I had realistically figured I COULD finish in the 2:30s. I had privately hoped to finish in the 2:20s...and was ecstatic to clock 2:19:21.6!!! A Personal Best, you know, since it was the first time I ever ran a half!
We headed off to Chapters - the kids played with Thomas the Train and read books, and I enjoyed a nice coffee, and admired my dog-tag medal!!!!
(Believe it or not, yes, I was able to get up! AND, after running the half, I took the three kids to the local pool for some fun. We then went out for dinner...it was an amazing day!)
Friday, September 4, 2009
Check out my Senior Bunny
Fancy clothes. Check!
(apparently, a belt, makes it "fancy, fancy!)
Quick pose with Mommy. Check!
A big yellow bus. Check!
Ready to tackle senior kindergarten. Double check!!
Anderson,
Today you start senior kindergarten; today you are a senior bunny! How exciting! You are so ready for this new challenge. I cannot wait to see what the new school year brings for you. This year you will be one of the leaders in your split class. I know you will help and coach and befriend many junior and senior bunnies. Your infectious smile, crazy antics and sincere caring nature will help you make many friends. I hope that you continue to love writing, reading and drawing. May your level of confidence grow, and your success be many. I hope you allow your cute, cuddlely personality shine, but that you also pay attention, stay focused and most of all, that you have fun!
Every day at 11:47am I will be anxiously waiting at the bus stop for you - excited to hear about your newest adventure and fun. I cannot wait to see the zoodles and zoodles of art projects and work sheets you bring home. I cannot wait to see you excel and totally enjoy your last year of kindergarten.
Good luck my crazy, funny, Pander-Bear!
Kissies and huggies,
Mommy
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Grade One
First ever school-lunch packed...
A quick pose with Mommy...
Cool dude, ready to take on the world...
A quick wave and glance back...
... and DJ is off to grade one!
DJ,
May you have a wonderful first day, and a brilliant year in grade one. I hope that you make new friends, reconnect with your old pals, and have the time of your life. I hope you enjoy school, step up to all new adventures and challenges like you usually do - with a smile and a sense of determination and pride. May you make peace-maker decisions. May you be true to yourself. May you seek knowledge, fall in love with learning and have fun. May you accept your challenges, tackle any difficulties, take pride in your successes and use each experience to learn and grow into the person you are meant to be.
Best of luck in grade one, Buddy. I love you.
Mommy
(I miss you already!)
Monday, August 31, 2009
Fashion Statements
We, will be wearing our hearts on our sleeves.
Today, as I type this, my mother begins 7 weeks of radiation and chemotherapy as part of her treatment and survival plan against Stage 3 throat cancer.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Nonchalant, I am not!
We exchanged pleasantries, and I asked her what was new. Following her heavy sigh and declaration that "not much is new, same old, same old, she asked me the same question.
I joked about my weight loss journey, proudly stated my accomplishments, and with much excitement told her of my upcoming half marathon. I smiled ear to ear while I told her that we drove all the way to BC for a summer vacation, and how the entire experience was super-wonderful. I told her how excited all three kids are for school. Then I told her my big news.
She looked at me - kind of scrunched up her face - wrinkled her nose, looking down at me, she blinked her eyes a few exaggerated times and replied, "You're sure being a bit nonchalant about the whole deal aren't you?"
"Huh?!??!?! Nonchalant?!?!?!?"
"Ya, nonchalant. You know: Hey, I've lost 80-something pounds, I am running a half marathon, we drove to BC, had a camping trip, kids going to school, life is great, and oh, ya, my mom has stage three cancer. Jeez, Laura, that seems a bit nonchalant to me..."
I was awestruck. It felt like I was just sucker-punched.
Oh, the reply I wanted to scream back at her. But I was speechless.
No, I am not being nonchalant. Not at all. Life goes on, life has to go on. But while life is going on, every moment and every second of the day, I am thinking of my mom, the battle ahead of her and I am feeling a million, trillion emotions.
I am not being nonchalant.
I am sad. Scared. Hopeful. Upset. Faithful. Cheerful. Tearful. Supportive. Angry. Positive. Nervous. Numb. Trusting. Spiritual. Foggy. Steady. Fearful. Courageous. Terrified. Confused. Caring. Stunned. Loving. Helpful. Inadequate. Empathetic. Anxious. Sympathetic. Shocked. Concerned. Optimistic.
I am a million emotions all wrapped up.
I pray and hope and know that everything will be fine.
I am anything, but nonchalant.
I am anything and everything I can be and I need to be to help and support my mother, my best friend.
Nonchalant, I am not.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Before...Before...After...After!
And this is AFTER I finished 21.6km run....notice the smile! I DID IT!
And here is another AFTER shot, after my shower and freshen' up! Showing off my new hair colour! (It is a bit darker than I thought it would be - the box said Light brown! I wanted a change!!!!)
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Let's get this GREAT party started!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Private Parts - Priceless
As we climbed, and climbed, I pointed out interesting parts of the wall murals. Oh yes, the innards of this giant depicted many dinosaur scenes. I also pointed out all the dinosaur bones embedded into the walls.
Then Anderson suddenly piped up and excitedly exclaimed, " And I see his penis! I see the dinosaur's penis!"
GULP! What did my son just yell out loud enough for everyone within 20 feet to hear?!?!?!?!
Oh, the snorts, laughs, giggles, and snickers that were caused by this observation! I thought the mother ahead of us was going to pee her pants, and the man behind David commented it was too bad that was not caught on video!!!!
My son, Anderson - future paleontologist? Who knows!!!!!