It has been exactly 30 days since I last ate real food. I have been doing great - feeling great. I had no problems leaving food and following my medically-supervised 4 shakes a day plan. It has felt like a "vacation from food". I do not have to worry about food prep. I do not have to measure portion sizes. I do not have to count calories. Mix. Shake. Drink.
For the first 30 days I had very few food cravings. I did not face any difficult challenges. It has been easy.
Today has been tough. Thirty days and 120 shakes into the program and I have finally hit a mental challenge.
Up until now, it has been a wonderful experience. I have been able to recognize old, destructive behaviours and have been forming new rules, regulations and lifestyle changes to implement when I "go off product".
Over the first 30 days I was able to loose weight, increase my exercise and keep motivated. I have learned so much in my group sessions, personal sessions and on my own. I have been succeeding in my weight loss journey.
Today is different.
Today, I am tired. Today, I am sore (low back/hip). Today, I wondered what food would taste like. Today, I thought perhaps some junk food would lift my spirits. Today, I was tempted by every bit of food I have prepared for the family. Today, everything smelt so delicious. Today, my 22 pound weight loss did not matter. Today, I battled my inner-cravings.
Today, I was challenged.
Today, I won.
Tomorrow, I will be better off than I was today.
Tomorrow, I will realize my strength, commitment and desire to succeed.
Tomorrow, I will have yet one more "fasting-experience" that will help me cope with food temptations.
Tomorrow, I will win again.