Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I am tired

I am tired.

I am tired of of my new hours at work.

I am tired of the being sympathetic to other working parents, who claim to be so tired.

I am tired of not falling asleep in the arms of the man I love.

I am tired of little, coughing, scratchy, kicking, bodies climbing into my bed at 1am and waking me up an hour before I have to get up.

I am tired of my house being a mess. Ok, let's be honest, I am tired of my house being a disaster.

I am tired of washing dishes.

I am tired of doing laundry.

I am tired of stepping over things.

I am tired of three children trying to gravely injure each other by wrestling, hitting, biting, and pushing.

I am tired of listening to three whiny voices at lunch time and then again at dinner time.

I am tired of the toy room looking like a tornado hit it.

I am tired of beating myself up for BLTs (Bites, Licks and Tastes).

I am tired of loosing and gaining the same friggin' pound, over and over again.

I am tired of all junk food in a 7km radius of my location calling my name - screaming my name!

I am tired of feeling like I have no energy to blog or comment on blogs.

I am tired of not being the type of mom I really am, when I am not tired.

I am tired of worrying if my hubby will still have a job at the end of the day.

I am tired of people thinking I have everything under control. I do not.

I am tired of feeling out of control.

I am tired of being tired.

10 comments:

InTheFastLane said...

Yes. That is quite a list. And it is hard when all those things pile on top of each other. Hang in there!

Kat said...

Life can be so exhausting. Hang in there girlie! It is bound to get better. :)

Tara R. said...

Amen! I agree with everything on your list.

Melissa said...

I hope you find some rest soon. Being a mom, wife and employee is A LOT for one person to handle, I can definitely understand how you would be tired.

(((hugs))) my friend.

Sniz said...

Girl, you are singing my song. Yesterday it hit me...I want a DIFFERENT life, if just for a little while, an escape from what is my life for the rest of my life. Does that make sense? Hang in there. You've lost 80 pounds, girl. Think about that.

Bama Cheryl said...

I can absolutely relate. I hope you can get some rest soon too. Thinking of you with care!

Pregnantly Plump said...

Isn't your road trip coming up soon? Hopefully some time away will do you all good!

forgetfulone said...

I can agree with much of this! I relate so well. But for me, instead of not falling asleep in the arms of the man I love, it would be not falling asleep in my own bed because the man I thought I loved snores too loudly.

ilanov said...

Laura - I wish you could come to Israel with me! Anna and I were talking about you: not necessarily that "you have it all together" just what an incredible person you are. And, note to self, your house isn't a disaster, it's a HOME: with 5 people living in it! At least that what's I keep telling myself about my home.

imbeingheldhostage said...

me too! Are our children related because they seem to wake at the same times.


Seriously, up your vitamin B dosage, it seems to be helping me with my tired list