Well, I did it. Remember this post?
Well, I completed all my tests, got my blood work done and ECG - and was accepted into the Weight Management Program at our local hospital. I signed the contract and even gave in my first payment. It is real. I am doing this. I am taking control.
I have huge mixed emotions about the entire program. It is an extreme program, but I truly believe I need an extreme solution for my extreme weight condition. Some people may find it controversal, but after working with my family doctor and researching lots of different options and programs I think this is the program for me.
As I am getting ready physically, mentally and psychologically for the program, I am a ball of emotioons! I am terrified of failure - and optimistic about success. I am nervous, but also excited - at the same time, in the same breath!
I will blog more as I learn more about the program itself. But I have been reading the introduction package and going through the pre-program activities. Here are the basics:
Basically for the first week I have to follow a 1200 calorie diet. That in itself will be challenging.
Then, for weeks 2-12 I follow a liquid diet. Yep, for 12 weeks I will not eat real food. During those 12 weeks I attend weekly sessions and re-learn all about food and the relationship I have with food. I will develop the knowledge, tools and ability to eat properly and in moderation. I will learn about why I over eat and how I can over come my emotional eating. I will develop a positive relationship with food and a new appreciation for my body. This will be done through group and personal sessions with a team of professionals including a MD, a behaviourist specialist, a nutritionist, a psychologist, a homeopathic doctor, a trainer, and a variety of others.
Then, when I am ready, I will slowly re-introduce food into my diet. Learning the right combinations and amounts to make my body and mind function to the best degree. As the weight drops I will also focus on increasing my activity levels - I am so looking forward to my indoor soccer league and also continuing with my Cardio-Blast classes, plus introducing nightly walks.
So, on Tuesday I start this journey. I will be blogging about it here, and also at Our BlubHer Overhaul and I hope for your support. I know that I will feed off your comments and words of encouragement (pun intended).
I have confidence in this program, in the professionals available to help me, but most importantly, I have confidence in myself, and in my support group. Loosing this extra weight, gaining control of my health and rediscovering who I am will not be easy. But, I need to do it. I want to do it. I have to do it. I will do it.